Checking In

I haven’t forgotten you, dear blog no soul will ever read. Funnily enough exactly a month since my last post.

I’m considering making this a private “blog” (well it’d be a personal log… plog?) so I can more freely and fluidly express my ramblings without fear of this scenario that keeps me up at night sometimes:

• Post something ballsy, controversial, maybe outrageous, because interfacing with a white screen, typing away at a keyboard to a blog no-one will ever read makes it seem so absurd that any rambling represented by on or off pixels, themselves represented by 1s or 0s, themselves computed as an electrical signal or absence thereof by a black magic box that sometimes sounds like a B52 Bomber at 2AM… will ever stem any sort of impact or meaning, let alone consequences.
• Get hired, dream job, work really hard and be on track for a successful career
• Get called to the manager’s office one day
• Get asked about a post, maybe like the one I wrote about jsx robots
• Explain the idea behind the post, my view, and remark that it’s a free country, freedom of speech and so on

This doesn’t align with our company policies Get fucked

• Miserably regret running my big mouth on the internet “in principle”, “because the internet was made for such things” …you’re not Snowden pal.

I’ve been really busy with coursework. My final year project is due on the 22nd April so 10 days left (well 9 cause today’s over). I’m not too worried, my codebase is… 8 commits past “finished”, and I’ll keep polishing it undoubtedly because I enjoy making things difficult for myself. The report though (ironically what they care about the most - misleading for a “technical” “Computing” course) needs attention and I dread working on it because waffle just doesn’t float your boat quite the same after you’ve learned an actual skill like programming.

There it is, the programming supremacy complex - be it that or be it the simple fact that programming (esp now that I feel I can build pretty much any full stack web app (Next.js, TS, Tailwind, ShadCN, Upstash Redis etc)) has some oh I don’t know utility, whereas I ramble anyway and that, I’ve been told, has no value whatsoever.

I understand the need to communicate the process of arriving at a final product, so as to give insight into how the various decisions were made and so the marker can appraise their quality and contextual correctness. I get all that, but it feels very waterfall for an “Agile development process”. And what do I do? Bitch about it on the internet, naturally.

What a wonderful world.

Anyway, with that out of the way, I do intend to get back to writing regularly over the summer. I’ve some hopes and dreams that I hope and dream will materialise, so I will probably ramble some more about them - it does genuinely help me untangle the built up “static” and fluidly present it to myself, watch it writing itself on the screen - for that these digital ramblings are gold.

Farewell so long my incoherent pixel-thoughts, I hope we meet again soon.